Nothing to Fear But
Do you ever find yourself gripped by fears that can only be the result of external influence?
If someone would have said to my six-year-old self, "Some day you're going to stop loving the most important people in your life," I am quite sure I would have laughed my inappropriately loud laugh and gone back to my book. Do we come by the fear naturally that we may some day "fall out of love" with the man or woman we've committed ourselves to? I just don't think so.
But here I am, twenty-nine years old and slipping in and out of someone else's reality; a fear that can't be my own. I love the people in my life. My life without them would hardly look like my own.
If Tim McGraw hoped his "next thirty years" would conquer all his adolescent fears, I hope mine will triumph over my adult ones.
If someone would have said to my six-year-old self, "Some day you're going to stop loving the most important people in your life," I am quite sure I would have laughed my inappropriately loud laugh and gone back to my book. Do we come by the fear naturally that we may some day "fall out of love" with the man or woman we've committed ourselves to? I just don't think so.
But here I am, twenty-nine years old and slipping in and out of someone else's reality; a fear that can't be my own. I love the people in my life. My life without them would hardly look like my own.
If Tim McGraw hoped his "next thirty years" would conquer all his adolescent fears, I hope mine will triumph over my adult ones.
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2 Comments:
I hear what you are saying, and then some.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
There is also the awful feeling of being the one doing the slipping, knowing that you are causing pain but also knowing that you must move ahead with your life.
Truly a miserable experience, and one that can only be made worse by giving in to guilt and regret.
Monday, March 06, 2006
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